*~Dancing For Jesus~*

Saatnya nulis panjang2… ini tentang gw kok, g abaca juga gpp… cuma lagi menerapkan “Sembuhkan Dengan Pena” (dalam hal ini: Sembuhkan dengan keyboard…)

It’s been quite a while since I post my blog in English. Thanks to one of the featured blog on friendster, http://bett3r.blogs.friendster.com/bra1nwshed, I started writing it in English again. I read half of his blog (I saved it to my laptop so I won’t spend so much on Internet billing!). He got so many nice words that hit me right on my head! Haha… Like this one: "if one couldn’t sleep,

then one got no blessing. coz good nite sleep is a blessing." Hoho it’s just so true. I used to stay awake during night (I just can’t sleep n I dunno why!), and I think blessings for me just gone perished away by the silence of the night…

Anyway, I know my English isn’t that great… I never had any courage to compete in English competition although my high school teacher asked me so. A year later I’ll graduate from this hectic university (well actually it’s not that hectic…) but I still dunno what I should do further on. Each time at prayer meeting, they always said that God said do not be afraid with your future because I designed it the best for you and I’ll be with you each step you took. But really, my faith is lacking out each time I heard that! Strange isn’t it. I’m a kind of lazy and “cuek” person… Don’t think too much of what’ll happen in the far future… I only think of what should I do for now and tomorrow or just the near future… I don’t think I’m gonna be OK in this kind of situation of my faith…

I’m getting worried about youth generation nowadays… After I read a blog I mentioned earlier, I realised that many young people caught up in a desperate situation which they can’t handle by themselves or with help from anyone else. The only thing they need is faith in God. Don’t they know that God can solve any complicated things in your life? This is the recipe: A whole lot of Patience + Faith x Prayers + Moment of Silence = PROBLEM SOLVING a la GOD.

It works on me for sure because I’m not a kind of person who gets all panic when troubles come, although sometimes people don’t really see that in me.

Hmm, maybe I’m just not the right person to preach all about life and such because I rarely experienced any hard life. I still have my parents, healthy and serving God. I still have a big sister to accompany me. I still have close friends; I have a great community of faithful people in prayer meeting…

One of those hard roads I’ve been on: my brother. Yes. My brother. Only a few people knew that I have a big brother, 8 years older than me, married and have one child. I WAS considering that having a big brother is a blessing (ini grammarnya bener ga sih?). But now I never get close with him nor my sister-in-law and my nephew. The thought of their ruining our parent’s hope already left a scar inside my heart that haven’t been healed till now although I already attend New Life In Spirit Retreat for 4 times! (This year it’s gonna be 5!). No one ever knew anything bout that. I never thought about healing this wound for now, I prefer to solve other things first, other important things first. Not that I thought that my brother’s family is not important…

I just found one something: When I type in English, I can talk about life, God, goodness, and everything else clearly, like I meant to be talking in English! I believe that I’m an introvert person, never talk to anyone about my deep dark secrets and problems. I’m getting confused of pouring down the words to this blog when I type in Indonesian. Strange isn’t it? I know that my English just standard and no good (although my TOEFL score is 570… Wish it could be 600+). Every time I typed in English, it’s just like God opened my eyes and heart. I can speak out about everything, good or bad.

We just got home from Church, ada Misa dan Adorasi. When the Holy Eucharist (inside a Monstran > gw gat au bahasa Inggrisnya), held upon us, I noticed that many people cried, either sad tears or happiness tears… But I almost feel nothing but extreme happiness; I couldn’t stop smiling even when my knees are hurt from kneeling down too long. Lately these days I feel empty, I noticed it when I went to prayer meeting last Saturday. Thank God today I’m not feeling that way. The reason I feel empty inside my heart is because of lack of prayer… Sometimes I got to tired and slept; forgot to pray…

Lately I’m not thinking too much about boys… Lia (Feli) phoned me this afternoon and said he saw “Semerbak” at some place… I should be excited, but no… I feel strange and like I’m not in the mood to talk about it. I like “Semerbak” only for his good looking face… A real heartthrob! (I’m not close to him even though we know each other). He’s just my acquaintance. Oh I just can’t resist handsome boys: D

But these days, hmmph… My head just want to focus on something else other than boys and love. I only need to wait until God give the best moment (and the best soulmate)… I never bother when my relatives ask me about my boyfriend. Doh. I don’t have boyfriend, lah so don’t ask anymore. It’s not like boyfriend is the most important thing in the world…. (Duh kebiasaan nulis dan ngomong pake ‘lah’… ketularan Singlish mulu nih).

Anyway, I remembered filling up bulboard questions about boys. Here are the Qs&As, translated to English, trus gw jawab ulang deh dalam bahasa indo abis jawaban yg dulu aneh:

1. What is the first thing you see in a boy? Yang pertama kali gw liat dari cowo adalah tampang cakepnya… hueheheheh…

2. Mention 3 must-exist things on boys? (kayaknya gw nerjemahinnya ngaco, pertanyaannya mustinya: sebutkan 3 hal yang musti ada pada cowo) cakep, berduit (lho kok jadi matre sih gw), give his life to serve God.

3. What kind of skin colour do you like (on boys)?(pertanyaannya gw revisi) gw suka cowo yang berkulit putih… tapi ga seputih orang eropa ya… standarnya orang putih di

Indonesia

lah… bukan orang albino juga!!!

4. What kind of hair colour do you like (on boys?)? (pertanyaannya gw revisi) yah klo rambutnya dicat sih oke aja asal cocok ma dia n keren. Tapi rambut item tuh yang palng berkilauan deh!

5. Mention 3 body parts of boys that you like. Aduh apa yah…

6. Which one you like: Brad Pitt, David Beckham, or Jamie Aditya? Ngga tiga2nya ah. Gw termasuk salah satu cewe yang ga suka brad pitt…

7. Which body part do you like to be kissed? Doh. Hal begini ditanya….

8. Do you prefer French kiss or tender kiss? Kalo di The Sims sih paling low itu ‘Peck’ paling tinggi itu ‘Make Out’! huehehehe

9. Which on do you prefer: being kissed or hugged? Klo kata guru gw dulu, istilahnya tuh ‘melukis’, trus kepanjangannya tuh meluk dan kiss… get it? Hueheheheh.

10. What kind of clothing style do you like (on boys)? Maksud pertanyaan ini tuh, lo suka cowo yang pake baju apa. Gw suka cowo yang badannya bagus trus pake polo shirt polos… huehehe soalnya pernah ada cowo keren pake ni baju n dia keliatan keren buanget. Trus kemeja jg oke, waktu itu ada cowo cakep (yg gw kenal) pake kemeja putih lengan panjang n dia keliatan kayak pangeran deh!!! (klo gw lanjtin ntar bisa panjang bgt nih!)

11. According to you, which boy’s area that is most sensitive to be touched? Hoho mana gw tau, gw

kan

bukan cowo…

12. Mention 3 boy’s behaviour that u like.sifat yg gw suka: care/perhatian ma gw, ga gampang marah, love good jokes makanya dia orang yang menyenangkan…

13. Mention 3 boy’s behaviour that u don’t like. Sifat cowo yg gw ga suka: klo cowo2 udah ngumpul, yang cewe dilupain, tukang berantem.. dikit2 mo pamer sapa yg lbih kuat… , trus piktornya itu loh….

14. What kind of boy’s perfume do you like? (aduh kayaknya salah nerjemahin lagi, maksudnya, lo suka cowo yang pake parfum apa) gw ga tau ah jenis2 parfum cowo…

15. Your ideal type of boy? Tipe cowo ideal gw adalah: cowo yg hidupnya dalam Tuhan, cakep banget, punya mobil n bisa anter gw ke sana/i… hehe (ga bermaksud jadiin dia supir kok!)

16. And, according to you… What exactly boys are? Cowo itu adalah…  manusia yang paling ga ngerti apa yang ada di pikiran cewek… tapi cewek cukup mengerti jalan pikiran cowo… kenapa bisa begitu sih…

Udah ah cukup nulisnya,

cape

bo

… Lho kok gw ga nulis in English lagi sih… error nih udah tengah malem sih…

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